Monday, March 14, 2005



Ntah dah kenaper ntah dengan aku semenjak dua menjak nie da tersampuk band2 Indon. Yg paling best sekali Sheila on 7. Especially this song on my blog right now. Its just so....nice....especially part yg die mengeluh. Berhenti berharap. Exactly what i am doing right now. You know sometimes, you just keep waiting and waiting and waiting in a hope that a miracle might just happens. But time just stood still and nothing is happening. And you feel so hopeless so depressed that you just feel like giving up. Yup. Haaaiiizzzz.....
Upon quiting nursing, i have a few options laid in front of me. Which is:
1) Join Business in NYP
2) Join Business in SP
3) Join NAFA in Diploma in Theatre

I am so interested in the 3rd option because hari tu aku pi NAFA nak tgk my bro's gig den stumbled upon the pamphlets and i straight away fell in love with this diploma. But a few questions pop up in mind. Is there a future for me if i take this course? Dah gitu, datuk aku bising2, cakap banyak buang duit, den aku tanak belajar betul2, bla bla bla. Aku tak bersalah. Manelah aku tahu dat i end up not liking nursing. My mom told me dat day my grandparents will surely be unhappy with my decisions. But whatever it is, jangan endahkan cacian, makian atau criticism dari mereka. Because it will only patahkan semangat aku dan akan mendorong aku untuk berhenti belajar buat selama lamanya. Well my mom is right. This is exactly what is happening right now. Haaiizz......Betul jugak cakap nenek aku "Dah lah Siti. Berhenti skolah sudah. Pergi skolah pun tak guna. Buang duit tapi tak pass2"
Yelah....aku yang bersalah. Aku seorang anak dan cucu yang tak berguna yang pemalas dan cuma tahu buang duit orang ajer. Aku seorang yang tak mengenang budi dan satu sen pun tak guna dalam dunia nie. Itulah aku..........

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