Monday, June 27, 2005



Well..finally i think i should start blogging. Dont you think so?

Deadgothqueen went to halloween town at 7:42:00 AM!

Wednesday, April 13, 2005



It's like 7 in the morning. Why am i not sleeping like i always do?? Yea..good question.
Because, yesterday i woke up at 2pm. Then i wasnt feeling too well, was feverish and all. I took a bath coz i thought of going out. After taking a HOT bath, got dressed, i lie down and fell asleep again. Haha...tak larat ah. Your body goes all weak when ur sick. I remembered i slept around 4pm and woke up at 6.30pm. Dah puas tido so logically, i couldnt sleep at night. So at 12.30 am, i started ironing the pile of clothes, coz orang yang slalu datang gosok baju tu die operation so cant come ah. By 3.30 am, my back was aching and i was perspiring profusely. Hehehe...so i changed and went to sleep. Woke up at 6 am nak sembayang subuh sampailah skarang. Funny, i dun feel sleepy at all. And also i miss blogging. Haha....
Nothing interesting has been happening. This whole week i'm not working at Coffee Bean. There was even a training class yesterday and i didnt go.
Eh, to those yang pakai tertiary ez-link right, do u guys know how expensive transportation is nowadays???
Coz Monday i top up my farecard to $10. By the end of the day, only left $2++. Wahlau~!!! ok, i tell u where i go:
1)Take MRT to Dover
2)Take bus to specific location at Dover
3)Take bus back to MRT
4)Take train to Yio Chu Kang
5)Take train to woodlands
6)Take train back to Yio Chu Kang
7)Take bus home

Oklah, maybe not so expensive. I travel a lot on dat day. Well i miss those pri and sec school days where everything and everywhere u go is 45 cents. Hehehe....
Hmm..nowadays kan, bila aku keluar, nanti bersepah lelaki yang kacak2. Haha... Best jugak cuci cuci mata. Heheheh...
Hmm...besides all this, ape lagi eh? Nothing much ah...
Oh ya, insyallah i going Bangkok this 29th. Wheeeeeeeeee~!!!! =)

Deadgothqueen went to halloween town at 6:53:00 AM!

Wednesday, April 06, 2005



Ok...here are some replies to everyone's tag.

Mar: I dun really mean to lash out. But i have no choice. Furthermore, you could have told me yg mak kau akan bising. The way u put it made it sounds as if Ms Congeniality was far more important than seeing me. I know its like im not dat important anyway, its just dat i haven seen u 4 a while.

Anonymous: Who are you? If you say that i usually eat a lot anyway, den you should noe me better. u think i have an attitude problem? I dunnoe....go figure.

Someone: Thanx for the werds of wisdom ya.

Khai: Wats yer new add?

Afeez: Thanx tok penghulu. ;)

Today i had no work. So i had to go for counselling at NYP (not because of my so called attitude problem) but for my studies. Its tomorrow. So just now met up wit Spongebob (dinah) and went to town. DIdnt do much. i ate a lot as usual. den spongebob wanted to go home. so i met up wit my best fren nadiah!! Missed her soo much!!! We met at causeway, had dinner...heheh....den chit chatted and went home. Not much fun and excitement though.

Deadgothqueen went to halloween town at 10:02:00 PM!

Tuesday, April 05, 2005



Construction is thru halfway. Firstly, a shout out of thanx to everyone who tag ya...Hmmm...
Recently i have been eating a lot. Really a lot. PMS? Nah...dont think so. More to depression i presume. Its like these past few days i am so pissed. People get on my nerves,my muscles and my bones. So irritating!!
Firstly, im pissed about people going to GPA finals. Tak ajak aku. Even my friends, Wediah and Marni tak ajak. Of all people, even Marni pergi. Kenaperrr laaa korang tak ajak aku? Yah i was working but it wont hurt if u ask right? Takperlaaahhh..... Kalau Mardiana tak bilang aku, aku pon tak tahu. Mar biase ah gi ngan An.
Next im pissed at home. This is nothing new ah but its even harder to sit at home. They nag and nag and nag non-stop. My ears will bleed.
Next im pissed with my friends. Each and every single one of you. Especially Mar. I asked her out a while on Sunday night. She dun wan because she wants to watch Ms Congeniality which she has already watched. Yelah, Mar cuma nak keluar ngan jantan je per!!!
This is how pissed i am. I know ur my best friend and all but dis is just too much ah!! Now, i dun even fucking care what you think of me. Dont like me? Dont be my friend. In the end, i will see whether i have a true friend. I said many many times before. Sometimes im being too nice ah. I helped a friend who is having BGR crisis. Told her to break up for her own good coz the guy is treating her like crap, she dun wan. She did break up a while and the patched up again. Haaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Suka hatilah!! Aku da warning siang-siang, apape jgn cari aku lagi. Da puas berbuih sakk mulut aku nasihatkan die. Die ikut resa die, sembaranglah.......


Deadgothqueen went to halloween town at 12:45:00 AM!

Saturday, April 02, 2005



Missed me?? Yeah..thought so...Wheeeee~!!! Sorrie coz i didnt update fer so long coz i am alwayz busy and too too tired. Yeah, now its 6.53 am in the morning and im blogging coz im working later at 9 and i dun dare to sleep coz i noe for sure i will NOT wake up fer work. Hahah...Den later, late again. Den muz take cab again. Den kene fuck upside down by manager. Well, ok not really fucked ah...
Haiz...life has taken a sharp turn around the corner. Since my last update a whole lotta has happened. Mostly bad ones, as always. Now my grandfather has stopped working already and so that means i cant no longer depend on them fer $$ and furthermore no more school already. So how to get $$?? And last month's pay at Pastamania was only $60 coz i worked like twice only dat month. Why? Coz i was kinda tired and so called wanted to focus more on school ah. Yah..looked wat happened? Think im distracted by work? Nah...i dun think so. So like now im working extra hard to earn more $$ and i dun even now whether i will be able to make it for that Bangkok trip. Im juggling 3 jobs now. Wish me all the best. I wanna get fourty winks first b4 i got to work.

Deadgothqueen went to halloween town at 6:52:00 AM!

Thursday, March 24, 2005



WHoaa...Rasanya macam da tak lama gitu tak blog. Maklumlah asyik busy ajer. Busy ngan aper? Ngan keje lah ape lagi? Coffee Bean & Pastamania. Dah mcm penat arh. Dat time aderlah, 3 days in a row keje. Penatnye na`uzubillah ah. And as usual aku tak attend skool. Malas. But dis cant go on coz im gonna get expelled or something soon and that would make my chances very slim to enter any other tertiary institution. Haiz....so now pops another problem in my head. Semenjak dua menjak nie aku slalu balik lambat ajerlah. Yelah, da takde apape nak buat kat rumah. So usually aku ckp aku skola n finish around 7 or 8. Sometimes i also use MCG as an excuse. Sorrie arh guys but in dis dog eat dog world, anything goes. So smalam bila aku balik lambat, makcik aku yg sial dan sibok nak mampos tu sound aku ah. Die tanye aku masih drama lagi? Den i say ya.....Den die nak step marah2 ah cakap "drama ape lagi???!!" "kan kata hari tu da abis!!".....Eh please larh, stupid or wat she? Dah lepas habis 1 production takkan dats it kan??? Merepek sak...den she say she oredi told my mom n die bising2 arh. Dah lepas tu, nenek aku pon suka rub salt on the wound arh. Dia cakap "kau tak habis2 ngan drama.kau berenti skola balik ngan mak kau pon bagus.Berdramalah ngan mak kau pat sana! dah lah yg ini cekik darah. ni pulak ade tambah lagi satu cekik darah(referring to my bro)".....maybe to you guys its funny ah coz when i tell dis to my frens, they laugh. Its not. Its very hurting arh!! Dah macam kau kene halau gitu. Macam kau rasa diri kau ni yg tak sedar diri. Menyusahkan orang. Tapi satu sen pon tak guna. Entahlah, but maybe going back to my mom n staying there for good is not such a bad idea now. Its sounds appealing. So just now my grandmother told me ah yang makcik aku tu try to "psycho" mak aku by telling her evrything about me arh. If u guys were to remember my very first few blogs, aku pernah make dis promise dat once again if she butts in into my life, dats it. Im telling her off. i cannot take it arh. last time eh, sebelom die menumpang kat sini, hidop aku bahagia lah eh!! Bila die da sakit, da masuk hospital, takda orang nak jaga. Dah lah tua nak mampos dan tak berlaki, mane lagi die nak pergi? Dulu bukannye die kisah sangat pasal keluarga nie! Apsal skarang baru nak menyebok?!? Eh! Kalau bukan datuk ngan nenek aku yang kutip die, bagi die duit untuk further check up, aku rasa dah hidop tepi jalan lah!! Bila die sakit, sape yg jaga dier?? AKU! Sape mandikan dier?!! AKU! Sape cebokkan sumer?!?! Eh!! AKU lah eh!!! So berterima kasih sikit lah. Ni kalau ditegur takleh accept!! Balik2 cakap yang orang marah aku sebab mereka sayangkan aku..i spit on dat ah!!!! Pi mampos!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*breathe in deeply*
Ok. enough of angst. So sekarang, only time will tell. But i got a few options though.
1)Go back to my mom and leave everything here.
2)Go live with someone else (i dunnoe who)
3)Either i go or she goes
Ok, option 3 its like not really an option arh. But btol. Either she go or i go. She also hasut2 my grandfather and tell him not to give me any money nor pay for my consession fees. Kiwak! Dah tua tu, sedarlah diri tu sikit. Pikiran jahat sak!! If kalau betul, he really listen to her, den i dunnoe wat to say. I go ah. Thats it. Biarkan. Mampos ah. Jangan cari aku. Buatlah suma kerja rumah sendiri. Cuci baju. jemur baju.Lipat baju.Kemas rumah sume. Buatlah kau sendiri. Die pikir die hero per. Sedangkan baju sendiri aku yg cucikan. Baju die kalau handwash pon suroh aku jemurkan, nie nak buat keje rumah? Hmph! i roll my eyes in disgust man!!

Deadgothqueen went to halloween town at 1:02:00 AM!

Friday, March 18, 2005



This one whole week i have not been going to school. I could care less. Monday orientation for Coffee Bean. Tuesday start training.Wednesday attachment.Thursday was training and working and today was working again. Arrgghh!!! Tired! Tired! Tired! That is all i can think of doing right now, which is to work. Keje pat coffee bean and pastamania.Pi mampos pasal sekolah. i have already registered for the NAFA's dip in theatre. Harap2 dapat. Penat ah...K lah, blog masih under construction ok. So bear with it.

Deadgothqueen went to halloween town at 11:37:00 PM!